What do You Want?


When we want to achieve something, when we have something that needs to be done, what we’re doing is focusing our energy to accomplish said task.

So my question is:

What do you REALLY want out of this Life?

What are you focusing your energy on?

Does it make your heart sing?

Does it make your soul fly?

Does it make you want to cry out of sheer joy?

Are you living or surviving?

What can you do about it?

If there were no limitations, no “ifs” or “buts” or “maybes…”

No fear.

If failure wasn’t an option… what would you seek out of life?

You want to know what I want?

Are you ready to hear this?

Are you ready to give me what I need?

Because I want You.

I want to see you succeed.

I want to hear your dreams.

I want to help make them come true.

I want to love and be loved.

Without conditions, without boundaries,

Without words, without fears.

I want to abolish currency.

I want to pay for my muffin with love.

I want our hearts to be treated as celebrities,

Rolling out the red carpet whenever you catch a glimpse of it.

I want to have the liberty to not do things just for the money.

I want to live free of fear. In all its forms and masks.

Self-doubt, procrastination, caution, get lost.

I want the mountains closer to me.

I want rivers.

I want trees.

I want kisses that end wars.

I want to share my point of view with whomever is willing to listen.

I want to give you my eyes, so you can finally see how beautiful you really are to me.

I want a family. I want babies.

I want my soulmate to give me another chance.

Just one more.

I want to live forever.

I want to be remembered for who I am.

I want to be an example of vulnerability.

I want to get it all out on paper.

I can’t die with things still inside of me.

I want clarity.

I want yoga.

I want 4 a.m. meditations back.

I want to find my purpose.

I want closeness,

With every human being.

I want to play my part

In this vast Universe.

I want to make the most

Of this body

My soul has chosen to inhabit.

And of this soul,

That my body has awoken to.

I want simplicity.




I want a revolution.

I want to break the mold.



Carpe 86,400

One Lifetime = 2,366,820,000 seconds.

How do you measure your life?
How do you measure your day?
Your hours?
Your minutes?
Your seconds?

For the most part, TIME on a general scale, is something we take much for granted. I know I certainly did when I was young. Procrastination comes as natural as breathing.

If we squander so much time by nature, how are we then supposed to capture the moment?

Time is a precious resource, one of the most precious of all I would say. We can replenish our money, we can recover our health, but time is something you can never get back. Once you’ve lost it, it’s gone and the issue is that we take the next second for granted. We consider our every breathe to be a replenishment of the previous one, when in fact, it is not! Each breathe we take is a separate life of itself. Each one containing countless options, possibilities and decisions of which only one can emerge.

A close friend of mine asked me if I thought time stood still with a lover.
“When you kiss or make love, it feels like times stops” she said.
I believe the reason behind that feeling is because we are living consciously and attentively in the present moment. That kiss or that act of love is all we focus on. When you are in the present moment, there is no wandering of the mind to the past or the present. None of that exists. All you have is now. So it would make sense to feel as if time was frozen.

It is a beautiful thing to be in the present moment, we should all strive to live there more often.

Another beautiful think is to take chances, seize opportunities, take risks.

Life is a set of moments, all you need is one to change your entire life.

If it doesn’t work out, at least you tried.

Whatever you do, seize those 86,400 seconds over and over again!


Existential Bummer

This video will possibly inspire you, make you tear up, and convince you to go out and start living life to the fullest — all in three minutes.

For the last few months, filmmaker Jason Silva has been impressing us with his philosophical YouTube series, “Shots of Awe.” This installment, called “Existential Bummer,” is no exception.

In it, Silva asks: How should we react to the fact that everything we love will eventually come to an end?

Watch his response above.

I love everything about this video, from the angles of the camera to the Freud & Rilke reference to the use of the word entropy.

“There’s a sadness to the ecstasy”


It’s so painfully and yet beautifully true. We cherish the special moments because we know that they’re ephemeral. Nothing lasts forever, well besides our souls. Everything is impermanent. There is no yesterday or tomorrow, all we have really and truly IS THIS MOMENT! 


This moment is our present, past & future. So yes, we can make a moment last forever, we can not let go, we can make it count. Live your life as if you are experiencing a succession of moments rather than counting down the hours or the moments.

Each day we are born anew, Buddha said. What you do with your life RIGHT NOW is all that matters. If you don’t do anything, that’s ok. Start over tomorrow. Try again. Each day we are born anew… take that to heart. Each day you wake up with a clean slate. What happened yesterday no longer matters, what’s going to happen tomorrow holds no bearing on you. You are in the present moment and making the most of it!

carpe diem



Help I’m alive my heart keeps beating like hammer…
Hard to be soft, Tough to be tender.
Come take my pulse, The pace is on a runway train
Hard to be soft, Tough to be tender.

If you are still alive …..
Then my regrets are few,
If my life is mine,
What shouldn’t I do?

This life is yours and only yours! Don’t let anyone tell you what you can or can’t do. Every breathe you take is upto to you what to do with all that life inside of you… so breathe, just breathe and live!


I’m Happy to be Thankful!

I'm Happy to be Thankful!

Sometimes we forget to appreciate the little things in life… I’m happy when I walk into my local grocery store and my favorite mini cinnamon raisin bagels aren’t out of stock! I’m happy when my gas gauge isn’t on E when I step into the car, when I get a phone call from a friend just to find out how i’m doing. Then they’re bigger things we take for granted like our health, our wealth and the love that surrounds us. We take it for granted very often believing that it will never leave us. “You don’t know what you got til it’s gone” didn’t become a cliche for no reason. Focus on appreciating the little things in your life. Start trying to point out one thing a day, and before you know it becomes routine to be thankful for your own life! As Einstein put it:

“There are two ways to live: you can live as if nothing is a miracle; you can live as if everything is a miracle.”

I prefer to live by the latter rule. How about you? =)

Your Comfort Zone

“Behold the turtle. He makes progress only when he sticks his neck out.”

– James Bryant Conant

I realized that a while a go, they’re a lot of things that I would have liked to be doing in life that I wasn’t… At first, the excuses readily started to pile up “I have no time”, “It’s not worth it”, “Maybe next time” were the famous appearances. But now, I try not to lie to myself as often as I used to before. So in the effort of trying to be more honest with myself I started to really examine why I wasn’t doing certain things that I really wanted.

Zumba lessons, yoga, pilates… they are all things that I’ve wanted to try but i just could never get myself through the doors of the gym and into a class. Playing soccer is another example. I love football. In high school, there was an inter-school sports competition and I was forced to join the team. I fell in love with the sport. I would love to take it up again. I would love to do sky diving, white water rafting, tango lessons, bungee jumping, living on my own, going to the beach without covering up, but when it comes to making an actual effort to do these things, I can’t. Why not? Well, it’s a tall cocktail mix of self-consciousness, anxiety, fear and laziness. What if I’m not good enough? What if people laugh at me? What if something bad happens? I’m self-conscious about my weight issues, so I hate going to places like the gym or the beach where you’re surrounded by beautiful bodies and your imperfections are on display. Honestly, it’s such an uncomfortable experience for me. It’s not even just the places, it’s the people too. Family and friends always look at you with judgment or pity in their eyes. And who do i have to blame for that? No one but myself. Hence the self-loathing and guilt. Why don’t I do something about it? I try. But as soon as it starts it’s finished. I’ve never been able to keep up a diet or a workout plan or anything that would remotely help me. And eventually, I started to accept that this was the way I was and there was nothing I could do about it… And that’s how it’s been for years since. Why am i talking all this negativity when i’m supposed to be spreading positivity? Because to know where you’re going, you must first know where you came from…. Everybody has a history. But their history shouldn’t define their present or their future.


I’m changing all of that now, even with the fear and anxiety and self-consciousness I PUSH myself out of my comfort zone and into the world, where all the magic happens. And once you get there, you realize it’s not as scary as you first thought. I realized I couldn’t wait until I felt “comfortable” enough to do these things. I just had to do them. It took every ounce of courage in me to get out my car and walk through the front door of my gym without feeling like a complete outcast. It reminded me of my first day at high school. I was TERRIFIED that I would end up a victim of a bullying ring. But just like in high school, nothing of the sort happened. In fact, I was loved in high school. I was different from everyone else, but that difference was embraced and loved. I had the most magical years of school. If I could get through the first day of high school I can get through the first day of zumba don’t you think? I walked in with my head down, up the stairs and straight to my class. Once I got there, I realized how varied the crowd was. They were mainly women from all ages and sizes and colors. Everyone smiled and welcomed me to the class and we started to dance. After it was over, I couldn’t believe how much time and energy I had wasted working myself up against this. It was amazing!!! I go 3 times a week now and I love it. I’ve also tried yoga and pilates and discovered that pilates isn’t for me. List I said in an earlier post, I have a checklist now. And with the life that I have, I’m going to make sure that I live with no regrets. So I urge you to STEP OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE just for once. I completely understand how it feels, but life makes it so worth it. You will never know how amazing something can turn out to be. In the words of Coldplay “If you never try, then you’ll never know.”

So good luck to you. Stick your neck out!!!

Carpe Diem…what does it really mean?

My first post is pertaining to my favorite Latin phrase “Carpe Diem” which means seize the day. Funny enough Carpe literally translates into “to pick, pluck, pluck off, cull, crop, gather, to eat food, to serve, to want”, however, Ovid who was a famous Roman poet used the word in the sense of “to enjoy, seize, use, make use of” thus providing the world with a timeless cliché.

Another interesting fact about Carpe Diem is that it stems from a longer quote… Carpe diem quam minimum credula postero which translates into “Seize the Day, putting as little trust as possible in the future”

For years, I’ve loved this quote. As a kid, I would use it to convince my parents to let me stay in the playground a little longer, have sleepovers with my friends on the weekends, take me to Disneyland…twice! As a teenager, it developed into a motto of sorts, that each day should be lived as though it was your last day on earth. Nowadays we refer to it as YOLO (You Only Live Once). So I used to do just that. I would get dropped to school in the morning, pretend to be walking in the doors and as soon as I saw my mom’s Mazda out of sight I would run for the hills where my equally awesome delinquent set of friends would be waiting for me. We would roam the streets of the city like it was no one’s business. Then, when the sun went down and the city came alive we would find a way to sneak into to all the cool clubs and be at all the cool gigs going on. I honestly don’t remember sleeping for 2 years. It was awesome. Then I moved away from the city to a beautiful island in the Caribbean, I settled in and got a job. In other words, I got older. And with age comes something that we seem to take for granted unless someone points it out to us…Wisdom. I can finally say I’ve only recently truly discovered what my favorite phrase that I would like to get tattooed on my arm actually means. I used to think it meant to live as if there was no tomorrow. I used to think that it meant freedom. To free oneself from the expectations of others, the responsibilities of your life. To live for yourself. And to live it now. But i was wrong. We live in a world where we have rules and systems put in place. Morning traffic, taxes, full-time jobs to pay for our loans, mortgages, insurance, expenses, etc etc etc. Carpe Diem doesn’t mean to abandon all that, it doesn’t mean to belittle all of that. It’s not just some bohemian concept for actors and artists or some catch phrase for blockbuster movies. It means that no matter who you are or what you do, that you matter. In the grand scheme of things, YOU are Important! YOU make a difference! So whatever you’re doing with your time, make sure you value it! Whether it’s sitting at your desk, or picking  your kids up from school or just trying to figure out how to pay rent this month, your life is unique. And today is all yours to do whatever you want to do with it. Kinda empowering once you realize how significant you are isn’t it?

Here’s an awesome song by Kris Allen titled “Live Like We’re Dying” just in case you haven’t caught on with the theme yet =P


So I hope I have you basking in your new-found power when it comes to taking control of your life.

“Life is like a TV, and you’re the remote control” I just came up with that, but it sounds like something someone’s already said. lol

Have a LOVEly day!!!