A Love Letter to my Heart…

I have a question for you: Have you ever heard your heart? Have you ever heard the intricacies of it…how loudly it beats, how it accelerates, if it ever trembles and if it ever cries? It was my birthday this weekend, and as a birthday gift I had participated in a Silence Retreat just outside of the city of Santiago, in a place called Portillo in Chile. It’s usually a destination for ski enthusiasts during the winter, but right now the place was empty, deserted, awaiting the brave souls that were willing to venture out in silence in search of themselves. Even though I had many discoveries that I will share with you in the future during my week of silence, the one that really hit me, really spoke to me, opened me up, transformed me to the point of no return was… my heart.

A glimpse of Portillo...
A glimpse of Portillo…

I really heard it. Everything it is, everything it holds, everything it keeps, everything it gives. It was all there, so exposed to me now. I went to sleep to the sound of my beating heart and I woke up to it, when i felt an emotion, it was like feeling it in slow motion, I felt how the seed of the emotion grew from the center of my heart and expanded into every atom in my body, I even felt how it transcended my body and like a painter with a steady hand, painted the aura around me. I felt that. And then, after a few meditations and really embracing the silence, I heard it’s voice. The voice of Love was now a channel that was completely open to me. And we had so much catching up to do. I discovered just how much love I have inside me, in all its forms, for me and for everything and everyone else. And there is such a beauty, such wisdom, such delicacy when I think back on that moment. Because even though my chats with Love lasted a short span of time, it felt like forever. It still feels like forever.

Dialogue with Love...
Dialogue with Love…

Now Love isn’t quite hard to find you see, and it’s something we do quite often, I would say on a daily basis. If you are here and reading this then you’re probably like me and you probably Love as much as you Breathe. But we need to Listen. That is the key. In a world where we are losing our listening, that is harder and harder to do. But I implore you… wherever, whenever you can, seek the silence. For it is a space that you can fill with the echo of yourself. Where you can really hear yourself, and listen to yourself. Listen to your mind, listen to your thoughts, listen to your heart, listen to Love. If you have a question, you might get an answer or two. If you have a request, you might just find the courage. We must seek a relationship with ourselves, with our hearts, with our love in the same way that we seek relationships with others. In fact, we should be a priority. The more Love you have in you, the more you’re able to share. So, if this touches you in any way, let it be in this way: You are amazing. You are wonderful. You are wondrous. You are unexplored territory. There is so much within you waiting to be discovered. Dig. Dive. Look. Listen. Seek. And be amazed by the magnificence of your own Being. Namaste.

Come On…

You’ve got the words to change a nation
but you’re biting your tongue,
You’ve spent a life time stuck in silence
afraid you’ll say something wrong,
If no one ever hears it how we gonna learn your song.
So come on, come on…

To be honest, I’m tired… I’m tired of the silence. Each one of us is unique. We have a voice, a story, a message that whether we want to admit it or not, it wants to be heard. Your story, believe it or not, is worth more than gold. Your story could save a life. Put yourself out there, give of yourself to this world. If there’s someone you love… tell them! If there’s something you want… ask for it! Whatever it is, speak it out loud. Silence is a darkness that festers inside you. The more you wait to find the courage, the more you’ll never have it… 

Today I ran into a very important person from my past whom I still love very much. Has anyone you know ever pretended like they didn’t know you? Well that’s what happened. That’s what she did. She passed by me as if I didn’t exist, as if I was invisible… and it hurt. Because I let it hurt. Because the last time we saw each other it wasn’t on good terms and because I wasn’t expecting to see her again for a long time and I had made peace with that. Because they were so many words left unsaid… I wanted to open my mouth and say something but I thought better of it, because it felt like it was the “right thing to do” at the time. How many of you have felt the same?

I’m tired of the silence.

We’re all wonderful, wonderful people
So when did we all get so fearful?
Now we’re finally finding our voices
So take a chance, come help me sing this…

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The Loudness in Silence

The Loudness in Silence

I’ll be the first to admit that a long time ago I was afraid of being alone. It was a scary place to be. My mind was a constant moving train that would take me to endless places. If my emotions and my thoughts weren’t understood or controlled, I was taken on a surprise ride. I didn’t know when or where I’d end up. And most of the time it took me to dark places. It showed me things I wasn’t ready to face. I hated being alone but at the same time I hated being surrounded by people. I liked to be around people but at the same time be invisible. My environment would become a distraction to get out of my head for a minute. Then I had a mind-shift a few years back when I read and understood more about the power of my thoughts and emotions, about the Universe, about the important role of my interaction with others. Everything changed. Suddenly, I liked being alone. I welcomed it. I discovered meditation and I fell in love with it. I would spend countless hours alone with myself. But I wasn’t “avoiding” my reality, or “running away” from the world. I was discovering a new one. My own. It’s something that I still do up to this day and it has been the most amazing, inspiring, gratifying and humbling experience I’ve encountered. I’d like to think that the path I am on is thanks to being able to not only hear but also listen to my soul and its intention for me.
You will discover the synchronicity in the air and the alignment of the Universe when you start to act according to your soul.

 

A quick word of advice if you’re contemplating setting aside some good-old alone time for self-discovery.

1. The Ego will show up first. You will struggle with it. What you think is you achieving some kind of breakthrough is your Ego tricking you. The Ego has feelings and concerns too, if you can push past the barrier it creates you will discover a silence like never before.

2. Be prepared to be peaceful.

3. Be prepared to look at yourself in the mirror and not recognize the person staring back.

4. You are conducting a deliberate self-exploration experiment. Don’t go easy on yourself. If you turn a corner and don’t like what you see…keep walking. Because you know what? If you turn back, you’ll never discover the other things about you that you will LOVE.

5. Don’t forget your wings, you’ll need them once you takeoff.

Safe journey 🙂